Midnight chats are the reason all this happened. I was talking to my boyfriend whilst lying in bed and our conversation went from sweet nothings to sexual. And you know these small small boys start that conversation with, ‘what are you wearing?’ Now I cringe when I am asked this but at that time, I felt special. It made me feel like he was so interested in me and that he was physically attracted to me too. SO I engaged, I lied that I was in something red and lacey with no underwear. I can bet you I was in a t-shirt. He did that thing when they act like they are visualizing you strip or whatever and I was on the other side unsure how to react or respond.
I managed to play along until I was asked to send nudes. I froze up because I had never taken photos of myself naked and this was due to many factors one of them being my insecurity. So I had to think fast, I lied that I had not noticed that power had cut so I couldn’t take the pics. He sent me a sad emoji and I thought I had won this round but I had not. He sent a message that read, ‘promise me you will take some for me in the morning and send.’ How do you deny this? The sun will be out, what other excuse can one possibly use?
So I promised, anxiety had me by the balls throughout the night because I was supposed to send my whole nude body to this man. What!? I didn’t want morning to come, this one time I needed the night to never end but it did. My morning included me checking my phone the moment I opened my eyes, not on that day, I wanted to avoid the pressure as much as I could. I could have just said no, after all, it was my body. I dragged myself to take a shower and whilst in there I tried to imagine how I would pose without showing him how fat I was. Was that even possible?
So I pop out of the shower, at this point I was even wondering f could not fake a sickness just to get out of this. I would have gotten caught this time around so there I was in front of my mirror, hoping that the mirror had magic slimming powers. I learnt that day that my mirror was just an ordinary mirror. I did my best to look ‘sexy’ and by the time I was done it felt a little exhausting and I told myself those would have to do. So I picked a total of 5 and I pressed send. I put my phone under the pillow as if that would solve anything.
After a while, I started to ask myself why my phone had not pinged. My immediate thought was that he hated them, he was disgusted by my body and with tears n my eyes I picked up my phone. I wanted to type a long ass paragraph to tell him off, I open our chat and there was nothing. I mean my pictures weren’t there! When I checked my message thread is when I realize I had sent them to my boss. Tears just rolled down my face, how the hell was I going to explain this? And this was the time when one could not delete messages for both people.
I called my boyfriend and I was weeping and low key whizzing. My panic was all the way up there, and I had made the rookie mistake of including my face in the photo. My boyfriend did not know what to say neither did he have a solution to this problem. I could not go and tell my mum because, well, why exactly was I taking nudes, to begin with. My boss now knew me inside and out, my only prayer at this point was that he would not open that message whilst sitting next to his wife. I would get this man in trouble for no reason, what had I done?
Later that day my boss replied with, ‘mistake?’ And I sent a whole long ass apology only for him to respond with, ‘ a clear example of read carefully. Good night.’ He never brought it up and neither did he make moves on me. A boss from heaven! The end.
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